No Vex / Ma binu

"ma binu" used by the typical Yoruba person means "no vex" in pidgin. No vex is also typically used by the average Nigerian. These two words or their variations in other Nigerian languages employed when you offend somebody and want to appease them. A colleague recently used it on me and I was angry that she used it so I lambasted her... somewhat.


Ma binu is Yoruba for "do not be angry" or "don't get angry", I am pretty sure there is a variation for this phrase in every other Nigerian language.


What is my beef with this it is NOT an apology. I look at it as an arrogant phrase. If you offend somebody, your proper response should be: 1. I am sorry 2. Forgive me 3. It wont happen again.
Depending on the severity of the offence, all those three might not be necessary. No vex and Ma binu is not only inadequate, it is condescending.


In my opinion.

My advice/rant on the concept of "love" in romantic relationships.

I have a lot of stories about my love/romantic life. Sometimes I feel bad that I am still not "settled" or haven't been in an ideal relationship but overall I have more joy about being single than otherwise.
Through my journey I have learnt a lot of love and romantic relationships. Below are some of what I have learnt.


1. I do not believe in the concept of hope when it comes to relationships. For example if I like a girl and I ask her out and she somehow snubs me or tells me she "is not ready". I do not and will never bother to stay around "hoping" that she would "become ready". To me the concept of HOPE has no relation to Romanticism. I had a young lady once who liked me a lot of even though we were not dating and I did not ask her out, she kept treating me like I was her boyfriend. She later said that she was hoping that by treating me that way we would just become boyfriend and girlfriend without thinking much about it. I wanted to teach her something when she said that but I chose not to. What I wanted to teach her was that - anything relating to a romantic relationship that leads to marriage should never be done mistakenly. Marriage should be gone into like a business deal, a lot of negotiations should occur - it should be a very deliberate effort.


BALANCE: Before I make the decision of not continuing to pursue a lady, I assess her reasons for denying me. I am a very realistic person so if it is something like "she doesn't think I make enough money" or "she doesn't like my nose". I immediately move on without thinking twice. Now, if it were something like "she doesn't know enough about me" or "she is playing hard to get", sure I will still continue.


2. I try to tell people that you have to know how you define love. There are different kinds of love. You need to know how you define love and how the other person you like or want to be in a relationship with defines love. For a lot of people, love is a feeling - a positive feeling. For me though, love is A COMMITMENT THAT IS NOT BASED ON HOW WE FEEL BUT HOW WE ACT PUTTING OTHERS INTERESTS BEFORE OURS AND ULTIMATELY CHRIST'S INTERESTS FIRST. So if I meet a young lady and I teach her my own definition of love and she does not agree with it - forget it.I forget about the relationship immediately.  There is no moving forward. To me this is something very straightforward.


BALANCE: Even though the young lady might not agree at first, if she is open to the idea/definition and there is a possibility that she could accept it, then sure I would continue.


3. Balance is very important. I think one of the reasons I am still single is because I love my personal freedom too much. My last relationship was not good because she was an indoors person. She did not really enjoy going out. I am similar but sometimes I just like to hang out with my friends and CHILL. I realized that every time I hung out with my friends she got so jealous that she made me feel terrible for hanging out with my friends. That was definitely unhealthy. I do not ever see myself being in that position again. Like the point I referred to in number 1, a solution to this would have been for us to sit down like adults and discuss this conflict. I would have told her, "listen, I would love to hang out with my friends once or twice a week and hang out with you the other three or four or five days in the week. These are the specific days and times I will hang out with my friends. Do you agree with this?"
I believe couples should be able to freely talk like this about the things they have conflict about. The balance in the above situation is that normally I might hang out with my friends 4 times a week but I am sacrificing 2 extra days to suit my partner.


BALANCE: Already discussed.


4. We need to keep in mind that all human beings are selfish and that is one of the reasons why we should never try to change someone. We can try to influence people but we should never try to change anyone. I have lost several friendships because I have tried to change people. I realized that even though it is important to be a good influence and to motivate or push people to be better, we should not push too hard because their allegiance to themselves is ALWAYS going to be more than their allegiance to US. True change is hard, difficult, and most people want to take the path of least resistance. I have ended a lot of romantic relationships that I would have liked to continue because I realized that I would want to change the person too much. I took responsibility for that person. for that relationship and decided to end it in order to avoid future profound pain. I need someone that fits me without having to make major behavioral or character changes. Or the person should at least be on the right path while I help motivate them to get to "that place".


BALANCE: It is important that you are also showing that the person is influencing you and changing you too in positive ways. If you are so far advanced emotionally from someone, it creates a dynamic when you are the one always teaching the person. Learn a few things from the person too.


5. Most people take others for granted. I think this is one of my pet peeves in relationships. When you treat someone so nicely and then they take you granted. I have several stories about this. I have come to accept that it is human nature yet if there is something about me that I adore the most it is that I do not take the people in my life for granted. I do not know who taught me this or how it was taught but it is something I would love to instill in my children. In order to stop people from taking you from granted, you have to be more conscious of your behavior. What this means is that if you are a very nice person, you have to deliberately reduce your niceness/kindness so the person does not get used to it. Once you do this you can gradually increase the niceness or give random "bursts" of kindness. I believe that 80-90% of most people take things for granted. Therefore this approach can be used on most people. Now, if you manage to meet people in that 10-20% that do not take you for granted, then you can discard this approach and just be yourself. It is sad that you have to limit your niceness to people in order to ensure they do not take you for granted but this is what the world has turned into.


BALANCE: If you do not care if people take you for granted, discard this advice.


6. In a relationships, both people should be teachable. The point of a relationship is that both people must adapt to each other. It should not be just one way. I tell my mentees that any two people can be in a relationship as long as one of them is ready to sacrifice EVERYTHING.
Having good manners is enough to get you a good man or a good woman. Simple things like being clean, being courteous - if you can live with someone and they say you are a good/great roommate to have, that alone is good enough to get you a good person to marry.




For now, there goes my humble advice and rant on love. I could go in more detail but I think I have actually talked enough. Holler!

Everyone is selfish

Most people are selfish. As a matter of fact, everyone is selfish. Some people are more selfish than others and most time selfishness is not seen until an actual crisis or till a change in perspective but all human beings are selfish.


One of the most important things I have learned in the past few year is that PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT. For example, while for a particular woman it would be selfish to NOT WANT to have children, for another woman it would be selfish to WANT to have children.
The reasons for this might be: for the first woman, the idea of her not being in control of her body, the idea of the body changing so much, the desire to be more in control of her body supersedes the desire to have children. For this reason, her selfishness prevails as she choses herself over anything else.
For the second woman, wanting to have children might fulfil her biological cravings. She would be able to superficially tell people she's a mother, and also the fact that she has a "mini-me" would probably make her ecstatic. This action is selfish when the woman is not capable of being a good mother. Unfortunately, not every woman is designed for parenthood and a lot of people do not have the capacity or will to become good parents, therefore when they chose or do have kids, they are being selfish by not considering whether they can actually be good parents or are interested in becoming good parents.


In essence, though human beings are selfish, we have to train ourselves to be more selfless. Holler 

Random Revitalization Post

It has been a while since I last posted on this blog. I realize that as you grow older you abandon some things that are important to you. This happened to me subconsciously... why? Because I got complacent and stopped following my daily practice. I am supposed to review my projects/goals/ plans on a regular basis. I have not done that regularly or consistently. I feel like I have lost dreams. Time has gone and the things I should have done I have not done enough of. Some of the things I've abandoned include: writing, yoga, reading, 10 ideas a day, journaling, etc...
I want to change. Maybe I was over-ambitious from the start...? Maybe I should cut my ambitions in half.


I want to change. I am changing but I need to ensure I am changing for the better.
Breathe in, breathe out, stretch, envision it, pursue it no matter how difficult or uncomfortable. Pursue. It.

My mother!

My mother is my hero.
Maybe. Or Sometimes.
I was recently unable to walk properly because something happened to my leg. I woke up that morning and the first thing I did was hop to my mother's room to see if she was there. Unfortunately for me she had gone to church. It was a Sunday and she had left earlier than she would normally leave.
I went back to my room and took my phone to call her. She picked up after two rings and I asked her: -  "Mommy, where are you?"
- "I am at church."
- "You left earlier than normal"
- "Yes, I have to do some teachings this morning... are you okay?"
- ".... I can't put any weight on my leg- I want to go to the hospital"
- "...... What happened"
*I went ahead to explain to her the pain from the day before and how it had unexpectedly gotten worse*,
She then said: "Don't worry, just rest and when I come back I will come and take care of you and take you to the hospital". It was sooo sweet.


I spent the next few hours lying on my bed, reading a little and sleeping while waiting for my precious mother to come back. She came back looked at me. Told me that she wont take me to the hospital and that she would pray for me that it is well. So she got hot water, took my towel and she massaged it. Then she prayed for it. Anointed it with oil and then left to make food and send food and fruits to me.


I do not know how to describe the emotions I had. I just felt like my mother does really own me. I felt like my mother would always be there and take care of me regardless of what happened to me.
Chai, my mother owns me. I am sooooooooooo grateful.

I am a lot of things?

When I first meet someone, I show them a lot of respect and defer a lot in order to get to know them and show them that they are of most importance.
After this stage, depending on how I perceive the person I either continue my original paradigm or I change my actions based on what I have perceived from the other person.
Sometimes this change brings out the rude me, the impatient me, the mean me.
I thought about it recently and realized that WOW, there are different MEs. And maybe that is what Christ has called us to recognize by saying death to SELF and told us to strive for the ME that is in accordance with His Person, Will, Heart.
The ME that acts the same regardless of how the other person behaves.
The ME that
The ME that always puts others interests before himself and ultimately Christ.

To argue or not to argue

That is the question.

Among the things I have to ask myself each morning one of them is the question: Do I choose to argue today or choose to NOT argue.

When I was much younger I used to argue a lot. I think I used to love arguing. Why? I have no idea, I think it was just fun to me, to see people on the edge and talking about things they were passionate about. I also think a big part of me arguing has been to try to teach others and show them I know more than they do..?

As I grew older I started getting tired of arguing especially after starting to believe that most people do not change their perspectives on issues they argue about. So I stopped arguing completely. Completely.

To argue or not to argue? It has been a while (maybe years) since I made profound discoveries about myself. I think I went through unconscious periods when I would go on an arguing binge and then a non arguing binge. Looking back I do remember these periods but at the moment they occurred I was oblivious to them. 

In trying to leave more consciously, when I wake up in the mornings one of the questions I ask myself is: Should I argue today or should I just NOT argue? I think it is also fundamental to whether I have HOPE that people will deviate and give themselves an opportunity to learn. LOL. 

Or maybe hope doesn't apply at all. Maybe I should just stop arguing completely and use my mental energy for more positive and quantifiable activities.

It is a new day. July 7th 2014. World Class Discipline resumes. 

CHyeah.