Trust and breaking promises

Trust. I have maybe 3 people I know I can trust with my secrets/ my life. 3 human beings.
I consider myself a trustworthy person. I mean, really trustworthy. My self esteem actually depends on the fact that I am fully trustworthy. I want to say I am excellent in trustworthiness.
Yet, they say excellence is best seen in a crisis. Well... I have never been in a situation where I have been tortured to give out secret information, so in search of humility maybe I am not that trustworthy. I hope I never go through that situation because I have a threshold for pain!!!

But based on normal circumstances, I am very trustworthy. I have kept secrets that people have told me and never divulged this information, even though I have been tempted a number of times.

There are very few people like me. I don't know why.

I have been in situations where I have been tempted to divulge secrets because I thought "maybe this person is trustworthy" but my thought process involved "what if this person is like you...?", this person will go ahead and tell the next person "hoping that this person is trustworthy"

it only takes ONE person. it only takes ONE slip.

To you I give my pledge, to honor all that's good in this life we are living.

yes, I pledge to honor you and your secrets.
But I am hesitant about trusting you, so I will just keep it all to myself.
inconsistent? one sided? Yes...
You will have to prove yourself. Yes... prove yourself trustworthy!